talk about realtionship

This morning I didn't join my english class, cause of my laziness and my assertiveness in order to distribute my time, but i'll try to make this time not to be rubbish, unuseable activity, but I want to fill my time with an activity as a replacement my loss. I want to write an english essay bout what ya?? hhhhmmmmmm

bout my latest experience, get a new lesson bout how to be an unselfish person. Ahhhhhh alhamdulilah thanks to Allah, gave me that awareness. Yeah the story begin from my desire to learn how to make an relationship or more precisely is making an healthy relationship. And then I want to collect as much as information bout her, but yeah I get an rejection from her sister, and I believe it from her too. Truly first time I don't have any feeling with her, but why when I get that answer I felt a little terrible feeling, yeah disappoint is a nature from human. Always fell that......... yeah but listen I walking with full of awareness I do this for a learning process, in order to make an relationship, so awareness, rationality, objectivity very needed in this case, so I try to do that principles. I don't interested in relationship like boyfriend or girlfriend, but yeah like turtledove, someone that I loved with all my ability to loving. Someone that can be share partner in sad and happy, which can make easier when life gets hard hahaha like Lucky lirics ), I come to be a superhero, hahhahaha that protect her from bad people. No not realy like that, oh good that is like from a fairy tale, but think it once again, hhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmm maybe a part of that is right, cause thats is a universal value for people to make a relationship, that what people wants, comfort, save, ptotected, dominated, loved, and for a basic, human is social creature (I got that from my friend)so they need to make a social interaction, from that point its can be more complicated relationship.